I try not to spend to much of my life thinking there must be more to it than this. Enjoy as much as you can as often as you can. The chance that we as individuals exist to be able to experience what we perceive as our reality is almost infinitely small. This is "probably" the only conscious life we will ever have as neutrons stuck together in a process of universal order to dis-order. We all have a part of us that hopes death isn't truly the end of "us". The real miracle is we have a life to live in these moments we call now as opposed to our nature to think forward about "what's next" ,preconceived ideas based upon faith or hope= assumption, assumption= the mother of all f*ck ups. late night rant over.