Diet

[RandySavage]

Yo Jizzy, are you still posting/alive?

 

Or have you drowned on juice and PB & J sandwiches?

 

 

[FellowshipOfTheRon]

think he asked to be banned for a while on purpose because he was using forum to procrastinate school / training

[RandySavage]

Ahhh fair enough. I miss this topic!

[Bruce Al]

Today i had sweet chilli tuna on quinoa with an orange for breakfast/lunch. And for dinner i had cajun chicken breast, fried onion, garlic and ginger with boiled kumara.

Didnt have much of a appetite which was surprising as i had a 2 hour midnight sex session and another 1hour session at 630 this morning. I did all the work... she just lay their like a dead horse.

[Bruce Al]

Today the only thing im eating is 2 cajun chicken breasts with quinoa, kumara and peas for breakfast and lunch. 

Dinner will be salmon and broccoli.

Probably wont hit the weights tonight but will do laps and bombs at the pool before dinner. Only mean wanks tonight.

[GyzzBrah]

Diet been mostly nothing since return to otago after holiday.

 

Quite literally nothing. For some reason been a bit queasy going to the mess and sitting down with "friends" because not sure if they like me or not. Even worse because its summer now so they like sitting outside where smaller tabels so may not be enough space for me they wouldnt give a shit if there wasnt.

 

Cant wait till next year to move on most likely grange street and make new friends etc

 

Diet is like 2 pack noodles 96mg nicotine 3 cigarette 2 coffee 2 greentea 1 tuna pack biscuits 60mg ritalin 600mg caffeine 1 protein shake.

 

Going to the mess hall again, but usually wait outside till my "friends" leave or wait till 10 mins before it closes down.

 

Went to bed at 4 pm last afternoon, woke up at 11 am today.

[FellowshipOfTheRon]

strong sleep, strong social skills (know them feels bro), strong diet. welcome back gyzzy. why the cigarettes / so much caffiene man? hows training going? actual uni stuff been going ok?

[GyzzBrah]

1 hour ago, FellowshipOfTheRon said:

strong sleep, strong social skills (know them feels bro), strong diet. welcome back gyzzy. why the cigarettes / so much caffiene man? hows training going? actual uni stuff been going ok?

 

Uni actually been much better this semester, taking time to learn / read over content, so all good academically wise. Training is non existent pretty much, but gonna go tommorow most likely and forever after that. (surely).

Sleep is better compared to what it was.

 

So much caffeine because weak responder or label must be bs haha. Probably latter, you know how these companies are br0.

[Bruce Al]

I nominate Gyzzbrah to do 22 push ups for 22 days.

Me - 3 pieces of bread with peanut butter for breakfast 

[GyzzBrah]

Didnt go gym this morning since got out of bed at 12 am, probably wont

 

Did the 22 pushups as requested, had a few rests in between so not sure if counts.

 

Feel sleepy all the time, not actually a tired feeling, more like feeling like fainting sort of. Not  sure why since slept long enough today.

[GyzzBrah]

Not sure why posting here instead of journal, maybe better that way since it allows people that want to read about actuall lifting to have less spam etc.

 

Woke up this morning at around 9 am (fell asleep 7 am maybe but went to bed at 1 am), had 2 nutella sandwiches and an ice coffee. Went to the gym at around 11, did 5 x 5 squats with 40kgs, and 4 reps of a set of front squats with same bar. Moved onto bench press which already had 50kgs on it, unracked it and put it back since no way it was gonna happen.

Happy I atleast went to the gym, got some blood flowing back into my legs.

 

Went to the mess and sat with "friends" for lunch, didnt eat anything because couldnt, but drank a litre of water possibly more while sitting there, so atleast im hydrated.

 

Had "800mg" caffeine and 38 mg Nicotine during that morning and kept chewing that up until lunch which is why I couldnt eat most likely. (Stopped regular use of ritalin)

 

Went to my lecture after lunch, but left after 20 mins to go home because felt (not sleepy) but that dizzy kind of feeling.

 

Walked home straight away (5 min walk) and lied down in bed for a bit (writing now just got up again). On the walk home felt like vomiting and colapsing on the ground, but did the latter in my bed instead.

 

Feel much better now, gonna have a cold shower and something to eat.

 

Missed 2 pm law lecture, but there is another at 4pm so gonna walk to that if I feel better and go to dinner as well.

 

Not gonna try self diagnose what the f*ck is happening to me or ask anyone else to, unfortunatley I havent seen a doctor during my time here and cbf going since only the ones in auckland know my medical history etc and could give me a better say. Gonna do skype session with psychaitrist in auckland so ill mention this to him. Had a concussion around 2 weeks ago from a fall but felt fine till I got here, so im gonna put it down to the hot weather, and lack of food. Not sure what ive eaten this week dont think I even have.

 

(eating last week was decent, had a lot of tuna / noodles that I bought down from auckland).

 

One thing that I do for sleep now is download this track of rain falling on a window, and put headphones on and listen to it on repeat. Helps.

 

 

[GyzzBrah]

Woke up at 8 am this morning (set my alarm to this time) but went back to sleep till 12:30 PM. I have 7 lectures / tutorials on Wednesdays so obviously not ideal. Went for a shower, and had a coffee / toast, and "600"mg caffeine after. Legs a bit sore from yesterday. Between waking up and sitting outside having a coffee, it was around 3PM. I wasnt in the shower for that long, so have no idea what I was really doing between that time.

Bought some lemon barley cordial and made a Whiskey Sour and drank that. Had 20mg ritalin as well. Walked to law lecture a bit later, arrived at 4:25 PM (it starts at 4)

 

Decided to go eat lunch at mess hall today, so had a smoke at 5 and went inside. 4 of my "friends" were sitting outside on a table, no space for me so walked home.

 

Went to lie down on the bed and felt very tired and horrible.
Woke up at 7 pm and cried, and felt much better afterwards though.

 

Drank 500ml water and ate another toast, typing this now.

 

I think my "friends" are going to town tonight, obviously wont join them.

 

Not sure what Im gonna do till next morning, might study a bit, and maybe phone a actual friend in Auckland and talk to them about whats going on.

 

Gonna do a phone appointment with psych in auckland at 12 AM tommorow. Will probably email my journal entries of this week and show him, see what he thinks.

 

This is the first time I am writing down with sincerity my mood / day to day activities etc. Gonna do this for as long as I can and see / observe patterns etc. I find it helps, as I have never written down anything like this before. I remember a year ago when I had depression my psych told me to write down a mood diary and show him which I never did. Helps to also write down what im actually doing as well, so I have it all recorded and can make improvements probably.

 

[Realtalk]

Muppet.

[GyzzBrah]

^f*ck off im not.

 

Stopped being pussy and made some rice which I stole off flat mate, threw in the rest of my tuna. Crushed up a pack of noodles and stirred it in, probably 800 cals.

 

Did 40 pushups as well, instead of 22. Took around 6 sets.

 

Bought a pack of 20 eggs, going to have some for breakfast. No lectures tommorow till afternoon, so going gym after breakfast.

 

Still feel shit, but dont fucking care, nobody else does, so wont matter what I fucking feel like, so might as well not be pussy and do what needs to be done. Read that thread about sleeping, gonna ask for something to take for it tommorow.

 

 

[PETN]

Woke up at 5.50am but got up at 6am and had a 40mg duramine and left home 6.10am and drove to work. Got there just before 7 which is when I'm supposed to be there apparently. Worked for about 2-3 hours then watched shares til 3.30pm when ASX closes (central aus time) and wondered why I even bother going to work anymore. Had cans of chicken at work and lunch. 2 energy drinks also and 52mg nicotine as trying to cut back on it atm. Upset a few people on hotcopper (asx stock investment forum) and deleted the emails inland revenue keep sending me about making student loan repayments. Answered a call from BSA regarding a tipoff I gave them about my former employer. Left work and got home 6.05pm. Spent some time with my python and then went to the gym. Left at 7.45pm and got there probably half an hour after that. Had another energy drink then did bench.

 

100x7

140x7

160x5

180x2.

 

Stopped there because shoulder felt like if I did a few more sets it would be sore.

 

Filled up my drink bottle at the gym fountain with water then had another energy drink then drove home. Not hungry yet so just going to go to sleep. Can't be fucked putting the bin out for rubbish day tomorrow.

[HarryB]

I'm glad that you drink water after you cry.. it's important to stay hydrated. 

[Realtalk]

13 hours ago, GyzzBrah said:

^f*ck off im not.

 

Stopped being pussy and made some rice which I stole off flat mate, threw in the rest of my tuna. Crushed up a pack of noodles and stirred it in, probably 800 cals.

 

Did 40 pushups as well, instead of 22. Took around 6 sets.

 

Bought a pack of 20 eggs, going to have some for breakfast. No lectures tommorow till afternoon, so going gym after breakfast.

 

Still feel shit, but dont fucking care, nobody else does, so wont matter what I fucking feel like, so might as well not be pussy and do what needs to be done. Read that thread about sleeping, gonna ask for something to take for it tommorow.

 

 

 

Yes you are. Who takes 600mg caffeine after a coffee. What the hell do you think you need that for?

 

muppet.

[maccaz]

12 hours ago, PETN said:

deleted the emails inland revenue keep sending me about making student loan repayments. Answered a call from BSA regarding a tipoff I gave them about my former employer.

interesting, i did both of these things in the last week lol

[GyzzBrah]

1 hour ago, Realtalk said:

 

Yes you are. Who takes 600mg caffeine after a coffee. What the hell do you think you need that for?

 

muppet.

@Realtalk I put caffeine mg in quotation marks because no way it could be that actual amount. Same with whey protein content etc. Or got very high tolerance. Probably both l0|

[Bigken1985]

On 12/09/2016 at 2:02 PM, GyzzBrah said:

Didnt go gym this morning since got out of bed at 12 am, probably wont

 

Did the 22 pushups as requested, had a few rests in between so not sure if counts.

 

Feel sleepy all the time, not actually a tired feeling, more like feeling like fainting sort of. Not  sure why since slept long enough today.

Probably all the Ritalin and caffine offsetting each other or some shit. Not good 

[GyzzBrah]

Just now, Bigken1985 said:

Probably all the Ritalin and caffine offsetting each other or some shit. Not good 

 

Could potentially be? I havent taken ritalin reguarly in a few weeks. I used to have 400mg with every 20mg ritalin pill when I did have reguarly, and couldnt feel effects really of either after a while. They have different mechanisms though, havent looked into it. Saw a few good threads on bluelight about this so will go back in browser history see if I can read them again.

 

I actually have not been taking as much shit, and to my sorry fucking luck, my psych is pulling the rug under me for my script. So I stop taking something that was doing me harm in the long run, and thats my fucking reward.

 

Fucking booked a skype appointment with him this afternoon, wanted to talk about actual real problems etc, see if he could do something for me like better sleeping pills etc. I always have to tell him I take my regular 40mg daily (I dont). If I dont, he wont keep giving me.

But as soon as I mentioned no sleep, he said no more 40mg, im putting you on 30.

 

Whole consultation lasted 5 mins, he charges like 200 an hour. Tried explaining I havent taken it in a while. And that I can take a small dose late into the night and still sleep. Never even listned, had such a rude tone.

 

I think he wants me to not be taking it at all, (since have no real medical reason to) and by putting me on 30 mg he said its so I can sleep but he is really trying to taper off. I can bet my next script will only be for 20mg.

 

Wouldnt be the first time I was misled by doctors.

 

Will ask around and see what doctors in dunedin are easy going with giving medicnes to students that need a easy fix. So many girls here on anti depressants / sleeping pills etc.

 

Im guessing with the volume of people student health sees daily, they will give me something and send me off. Its free too I think, or cheaper than others atleast.

 

Not saying about rest of day since nothing crazy or out of ordinary.

Didnt sleep at all last night, but was fairly at ease, woke up early, and not tired at all today.

 

Ate a fair bit of calories, wont say what from, maccas will flip his shit haha. But had a bit of tuna and eggs as well.

[GyzzBrah]

Edit: thought u were talking about not feeling effects of caffeine.

 

No I remember now, I just fucking hate summer. Thats what it is. Was summer when I came to dunedin, sweat like a fucking pig and couldnt move around.

 

Was most productive in winter.

 

Back in auckland too, got hayfever all the time and broke into rash.

 

My recent absurd tiredness is just summer I realised. Yuck.

[maccaz]

you are so full of shit its not funny

go to nearest inpatient mental health clinic and spout this bullshit to them, you will get the help you need

[beefneggs]

You are what addiction specialists call a "self medicator" ......................chuck in some dexi's here, add some shit there - wonder why I dont sleep - then when you do sleep half the day away- then again wonder why so claim sleep issues and seek medical advice about it  . Paranoid about "friends" liking or not liking you .

 

Shit mate, the song title is right " the drugs dont work "

 

[GyzzBrah]

Slept at 10:30PM last night and woke up 11:20 AM.

 

Also Maccas thats exactly what I said I was going to do though?

 

Anyway, sleep getting much better.